DearYou

Dear You is something i think i will start doing for a good lil while it let me release all the thoughts of a specific person the thing is that most likely the person who i am talking about will not read t so yeah that makes it even better well lets start offf with the first #DearYou

Dear You

Yes you. i never thought i will be writing a blog about you but out of all the people i know i feel you should have the FIRST one (iguess). but guess what. when you do come across my mind every so often the only thing that i can really think of is BAD thoughts. because yeah when i was younger i had a mind of foolishness and then when i met your behind yeah it went down hill from there but hey i am glad that i erased you from my mind b/c what was done in the past was just CRAZY the thing is that i cant say i did enjoy it but when i look back i wish that it wasn't you. It changed my mind setting because i learned alot from it and i thank you for that but hey it is wat it is. i will leave off with this though you will never read this i can tell you one thing that if i could erase it i would but i cant so yeah thank for the live and learn experience. Only 2 people know about it so dont think that i told the entire world wat happen and they dont even know your name so yeah. I trust these two people dearly with this secret dearly so yeah live your life and i will live mine.

and if nebody do read this and they ask me who is it. mostly likely i will not tell you and if you ask me wat it is about i will not even tell u. unless you already know some of it which i highly doubt. so goodnight people :) getting ready for next Dear You blog and other blogs to come

the image of the burning letter suppose to signify that the person will never read it so burning it is the only option

LIL SOMETHING ABOUT NEW FRIENDS

well everybody know that i get on here every now and then to just let myself go and express how i feel. Well as i was sitting here thinking to myself about this past year i thought about all the new stuff that has been added to my life and some of the old stuff that was deleted from my life. Well let me explain by what i mean

First off i can say that after this week i will officially be done with my first year of college and let me tell u...college ain't no joke u got to stay on ur grind,but that doesn't mean u cant have fun b/c trust and believe i had my fun here and there. Well at college u meet new ppl and i can honestly say that the new group of ppl that i met i LOVE THEM. KAMOTION K-DAT. yeah as friends we all dont get along very well but as friends we accept each other for our flaws and all. I know it has only been a year with them and i dont know them all the well but some of them i am close to like REALLY CLOSE.

1.Peter, this nicca lol well summer to spring we been close friends. I know that when i want to get something off my chest i know i can tell peter and he will understand or either just listen to me and just give me his best advice and this is one thing i can honestly say i like about peter. we argue here and there but we end up clearing things up and just getting back on the road of friends.Yeah i love my nigga lol in my eyes i can honestly say peter is one of the closest friends i made on my college journey. peter is funny and real that is another thing i like about him. JAMAICA and RIHANNA all the way is something i can honestly say he rep to the day he die. Also ne time u see me listening or talking some type of island it is b/c of him and my friend jelly and nicole lol i love all ya.

2.Vickie and Hal miss 3-D and S.OF.A this girl right here know how to make a nigga scream and holla but hey like i said b4 yeah i love my nigga. vickie is too much for my life but she real and she willing to help a nigga out. we argue also but we get back on the track of friendship. She is also my iota sweetheart yeah we share a bond that me and some other girls will never have. she is like a sis to me. Vickie can be bossy and mean at times but i swear to u sometimes she can be nice and peaceful. one thing i can say about vickie is that she understands me and where i come from. i can act the fool around this chick but yeah vickie is one of the closest friends i made on my journey. Ow-Ow.
Ace. My lb Hal lol we relly have went through hell and back together but i cant tell yall all that but Hal has been one good friend on this journey of the college road trip. He is the more responsible one out of all the friends that i made. the most serious, but hey he do wat he do. I got love for this nigga b/c he is my brother. He is my frat brother and i love him the same way i love them other two friends of mines i named b4 him. The reason why i put vickie and hal together is b/c they are always together. O'Le

3. Jelly my wife and Nicole my skeeza. These two chicas. JAMAICA-JELLY and TRINIDAD AND TOBAGO-NICOLE. these two girls are the ones who even got me hooked on to island NETHING but i love them. nicole and jelly they are so funny the reason y i put these two together b/c i promise whenever u see nicole u most likely will see jelly and trust me it is vice versa. with jelly and nicole i can always just be myself and goof around with them and it is cool that is y i love them but yeah i just wanted to say i love my niggas

DEUCES 2-REALISTIC AND JORDAN ShaRhonda is my other sweetheart that i am close to i promise u this is grandma to everybody else but to me she is my sis. i know that whenver i want a good laugh out of the smallest thing i can look at sharhonda and just laugh. it feels like i never can be serious with sharhonda but i try and it is epic failure. also sharhonda is the type of person who is just chill and laid back nothing uptight about her and that is y i fell comfortable around her. I love my SWEETHEARRRT. Jordan now all i can say for jordan is shoes shoes and shoes i never though i can see so many jordans in a room yeah i know it is kinda funny with the name and shit but then it is wateva. this nicca right here is a cool cat i can talk to jordan on a real level and we had some good times together and some late nights goin to eat but hey that is jordan one thing about jordan is that he is dont act crazy on a nigga and when i say that i mean that he dont act like he dont know a nigga b/c he is a real cat yea i love my niggas

I LOVE IOTA PHIT THETA OW-OW AND I LOVE KAMOTION K-DAT
i got more on the way so dont worry i will be keep everybody updated

by THE MAD HATTER

catching up/spring break

WELL WELL WELL where do i start off? well let me tell u about the spring break that i have right now. Well right now i am in New York with my school and yes i know u probably thinking what type of school send their students to new york all expense paid well my school does apprentely lol :) newayz moving on as of now we did alot of stuff we ate fancy something i dont like doin also we visit empire state building also we went to museum and it is only day 2 and we already having fun well i am uploading pics to my fb so just go check them out. that is really wat i am goin to do for spring break then it is back to school :( i know right i am not looking forward to go back to school, but i cant wait to go back and see my kamotion friendz and others lol :)


ok well off the topic of spring break now lets give u a lil update status of what has been goin on with my lil life. well let me start off by saying that i got my ears piereced as u can see from the pic above. i got them done on valentines day and i love them. b4 the earrings i dressed nice and it was like ok, but i think that the earrings had gave me this lil pretty boy look to myself that wasnt there b4 and i love it but trust me i am still markymark/burdenz no differ no changing lol well newayz while in the big apple i am thinking about getting bigger earrings who knows wat will happen to my life as we up here :)

Also some other stuff is happening in my life that i am just goin to keep on low key b/c it is not for everybody to know so plz dont ask if u dont know...only certain ppl know b/c they are involved but yeah i am telling u right now i am enjoying my life just opening up to new things in life and just ready to have fun i cant take life too serious

oh yeah school well i am doin ok could b better be this is my first year and i know that is an excuse but it is fine this is my life and i can do what i want but oh trust i am about to tighten up on my stuff asap and try to get at least all c or some b and c and a's who know where it will go and who know where it will take me but right now i just got to do the best i can and see how far it will take

well on that note i am about to head out and just idk sleep b/c i have to get up early basically well ttyl ppl see u when i see u

FRIEND HOPPING

Well hey everybody was sup it been a good while but i need to get some stuff off my chest well here it goes and i hope that this don't make anybody look at me differently b/c i am changing this habit for now on.....

Well as u can c the title is called friend hopping. Friend hopping is when you meet new people and then the old people in your life u forget. Well u don't forget them the things that y'all did b4 such as hang out, call, text etc.... it kinda goes down, but still keep in contact with the old people. just like club hopping going from one to another one to another one.

Well for the past couple of months me and my friend was kinda getting into it. Well yesterday i had went to her school to talk it out and she told that me that i act brand new when i meet new people and i forget the old people. The thing with that is that i told her that if i do forget the old people then why is it that i still text and call them. yes it may not be as strong as it should have been but i mean at least i keep in contact with them. In life u meet new people and that is just how it goes but hey that is life.

When i got home i thought about how many times that i heard somebody say that i act brand new and i come to realize i did sometimes forget about my old friends and i can say i apologize for that. I know that i was wrong and i can say it. Now that is something some ppl can say.but i can at least say that i tried to still keep in contact with them so that it we can fix it. Now if the person don't want to contact me and fix it then fine that is their choice. like the saying all u can do is try. And some of the reasons that i am not friends with some ppl is not only b/c of my fault there is both sides of the stick that was burnt in order to make the friendship burn.

In conclusion i will say this and i will follow this statement. i found a new group of friends called kamotion and i promise that i will not friend hop on them b/c that is messed up and i wouldn't want a repeat of what happen between me and my other friend. I found two friends that i really can trust and that i can depend on in this group, but i love all them in general. Oh and trust there are some of my old friends that i still love and deal with such as the people that i work with and some of the people i went to middle school with. And for now on all my friends in the future i will NOT FORGET about kamotion, but that doesn't mean that i will not kick it with y'all and them. College open a person eyes to new people. to all my friends now much love and to all my future friends much love. and i promise my habit of friend hopping is over b/c i wouldn't want that to happen to me.

UPDATES

Hey everybody so i guess it has been a long time since i been on here and i have alot stuff to say

Well some recent things that i can tell u about now is that i realize that some of the people who say they are ur friends are now always ur friends but are just in there for a season but i also begin to realize that I cant blame myself anymore for ppl who lose out of contact with me...they say mark why dont u call or hang wit me but now i realize that if u felt like u was losing touch wit me then why you didnt pick up the phone and call me. in the past u called me or texted me when u wanted to hang out then so now so y cant u do the same thing...Also if u dont call me or text why do u think that i should go out of my way to call u or text u ppl got to realize that i dont got to always got out of my way to show that i want u as a friends but how about u go out of ur way to show me that u really do care about our so call friendship everything cannot be one way. Well i talked to my friends and they gave me some good advice and i thank them for it b/c like one of them said ppl come and go and it is true but when the ones that said they were my friend actuallly come back and show me that they want to be friendz then MAYB i will b cool wit them.

ok well now that i am done wit that friend situation.the next thing that i can talk about is thing goin on in school.... well the thing wit that is that i am actually doin better this term b/c i am really dedicated to trying to get A's and B's the only one that i am worrying about is the lit and stats but i think if i keep goin at it then i will get it,but i am not goin to give up though. Also i am in a dance/step team with alot of my friends and we are called kamotion and i love all them and their crazy self. we did good on our first performance and now we are getting ready for our next one which is soon. and also i might pledge i am still debating :) i cant wait though for this year to be over so that in the fall or summer i can go to the dorms.

Also my dating life right now is not at it's best but i got some advice and i am just goin to let it play out and be patient and when the time comes around she will come right along wit it but as of now i am just goin to enjoy my single life until the time is right. But that does mean that i am not looking. All i want is somebody to accept me for me and to be real wit me. i dont need a girl who think that niggas aing shit b/c i am different from all the other dudes so yeah that is how i feel, but i got it coming together soon.

well i just wanted to leave a lil update on how my life is goin right now but trust there is more to come about financial and more school and mayb something very personal that not nebody knew about me but trust me i consider it a curse and it is a curse b/c it cause so much problems in my life.well i will hit the blogspot back up in a few days so burdenz is out and my new nick name is burdenz i will explain in the next one

winter break/new years eve

hey everybody yeah i know i haven't been on here in a good lil while but y'all know i had to do something for the end of winter break/new year of 2010/and the start of spring term.

Well let me start off by saying that 2009 was not all that big of a year the big highlight of 2009 was me walking down the aisle and giving my valedictorian speech and receiving my diploma. oh yeah going to unf is a big highlight... i did good during the summer time and the fall the term was kinda shaky but i can work with what i got but this spring term i am going to stay super focus and determined.

Well while in college i met plenty of ppl that i really can say are my friends. I joined a dance/step team called Kamotion and i love it. Many of my old friends that said they were my friends i found out that they really wasn't and that i just go t cut them loose but that doesn't mean i will not talk to them that just mean we will not be as cool b/c when i am a friend i don't want somebody to take advantage of me and just use me for whatever they want and they don't care what i want so yeah that means i just got to make some changes. It look as if might get replaced neways so i guess it really don't matter.

ok another thing that 2009 had it store was that i realize many things about myself... i realized that i am not able to please everybody b/c if i try to please everybody then that means i am not making time for myself. also that i am not perfect and that i make mistakes but the big part is that i clean up my mistakes. i had did a mean thing to my ex and truthfully i apologized and was sincere about it but i moved on from the entire thing and the only thing i wish from them is happiness. but when that happen ppl started to treat me different but in my head i was thinking that we all make mistakes so y is everybody looking at me different.

2009 i had some goods and bads in my life, but the only thing that i really can say is THANK U GOD for allowing me to wake up everyday and live life. yeah i may have complained about some days but at least i was not six feet under so i am happy. I learn many things in 2009 and now i am going to take the stuff i learned and apply them for 2010 and learn more in 2010 and so forth. but some of the changes that i am ready to make in 2010 is

1. get a higher gpa
2. get some tattoos
3. get body in the correct physical condition
4. actually try and tame my chromes by taking my medicine
5. and gettin all my car problems and financial problems over wit.

well i am done with this blog and all iwant to say i hope that i am ready for 2010 and all the new things that it has in store for me I am ready to make some changes and HAPPY NEW YEARS TO EVERY BODY I HOPE U HAVE A GOOD ONE I KNOW I WILL :)

Jerry Jr. Edward Sr. and Lorean Harris

Hey everybody was sup with u i know it has been a long time since i been on here but trust me there is alot to tell y'all i think this thanksgiving break i will be blogging about alot of stuff so be prepared to read if u want to enter the maze.

Well this one is about the love that i have for three family members that i will never be able to share with them in person well the first person that i want to start off with is my brother. Yes i had a brother his name was Jerry L. Harris Jr. named after our dad. Well three days after his birth he died. Yeah i know it is very tragic and i miss him. the thing is that i never even got to say hello how are u doing. There has been many times when i wished i was not the only child because it is so lonely and boring. And everybody with brothers and sisters say you are so lucky u the only child and i tell them that u r the lucky one. The company of a brother would be nice to have in my life, but i cant dwell on the past so i always call close friends brothers and sisters. I have 2 "sisters" that i grew up with and their names are Mary Ann and Sandra. You might have heard of them but yeah they are my cousins but they are like my sisters because my parents had raised them, but As of now i have 3 "sisters" and 1 "brothers" , but they are friends but now that i am in college there are friends that i met that i hope i will be able to say that he is like my brother or say she is like my sister in the future. but Jerry L. Harris Jr. I just wanted to say that i miss u and love u and that there will never ever be anybody to replace u. I know that u look out for me from above smiling and laughing at me, but every time i think about being the only child i wish i could just sit down and have a conversation with u for one full hour and i will be highly satisfied. so here is a memo for all the people with brothers and sisters stop being so mean to them and be thankful for them because without them u wouldn't have anybody to talk or to cry to. I think that is why i am always ready to meet and make new friends and i think that is why when i am close with a person as a friend it is hard for me to let go of them, but when i am close with a person they know that they can call on me for anything and i will try my best to do it.

Edward Sr. and Lorean Harris is my grandma and my grandpa on my dad side. When i was little i spent time with them, but till this day i dont have a good memory of them like that. But i do have some pieces that i will always keep with me in life. I miss them alot because i always wanted my grandparents to see me as a young man on his path to his bright future, but they had to leave this world so i am fine. I miss them and love them alot also. I know they are looking down at me and smiling. I just wish i could hug them two for 2 minutes so that i can have that memory forever but i just got to stick with the stuff that i got. Sometimes i would go by their old house and just look at it for all the memories and all the good times that i remember. I know that I will not be able to see them again but they will always live in my heart.

RIP Jerry L. Harris Jr. Brother, Edward Harris Sr. , Lorean Harris I will love yall 4ever